I've been feeling pretty down lately. Things haven't being going right for me lately. Failures in friendships, romances and just general lack of competence on my part. So I haven't been writing, because usually my feelings are amplified by my written word. Since these times, I've been very depressed and feeling like all is lost. It's a very dark place I was in. A Despair Event Horizon, a feeling that all hope is lost. The feeling that one has hit rock bottom and has broken through to continue to fall. But I fucking dug and and started climbing out of the hole!
But a friend of my I've spoken to who has felt the same did something great and has given me hope in the human race again. I've recently started to consider giving up the good fight and activism. It has began feeling like that people are doomed to fight among themselves and not care about others, that activists in large are just in the fight for glory and not fighting the good fight.
But this woman, who has been to darker depths than I, who has crossed the Despair Event Horizon more than once, who has been given up on, still thought about other during those dark times. She is a much more powerful woman than I and the tables have turned. I gave her hope and pulled her away from the horizon, now she has done the same for me. She has shown me that there is a spark of light in humanity still.
When someone is consumed by despair and still thinks about others and not themselves, they show a strength that surpasses those of titans. And this woman has done it and I love her for it.
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