The Advent of Excellence

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

The Advent of Excellence: My opinion why everyone needs a Kamina in their li...

The Advent of Excellence: My opinion why everyone needs a Kamina in their li...: "I watched Tegen Toppa Gurren Lagann a few months ago. It involves the story of Simon The Digger and his big bro Kamina. Simon had a crap ass..."

My opinion why everyone needs a Kamina in their life.

I watched Tegen Toppa Gurren Lagann a few months ago. It involves the story of Simon The Digger and his big bro Kamina. Simon had a crap ass self esteem, but Kamina always slapped, sometimes punched him out of that funk and let him know that believes in Simon. But Kamina showed Simon most importantly, Simon should believe in himself.

The world would be 100% better if we all had a Kamina in their life. Someone to cheer for us and let us know that we have worth. Someone who will never let us dwell in negativity. Someone who will assist us in piercing the heavens

I've had a few Kaminas in my life recently, and armies of anti spirals. I've nearly went darkside many times in my life, but the Kaminas in my life believed in me, as I believed in them, and we helped each other believe in ourselves.

My greatest Kaminas are....

Shulamit Asher/Heroic Muse : A stern hardcase of a friend. All business. But is still very caring. Muse would never let me beat myself up in hir's presence. Since Muse is a aspie like myself, hir has a good idea of my issues since muse has experienced them and conquered them.  Muse also refused totally to listen to me whine. At first I thought Muse was being mean and gotten tired of me, but I realized that Muse was just trying to keep me from beating myself up and turning into a mass of negativity. All in all, Muse fulfills that Big bro/Mentor role nicely

Ask A Bisexual Guy: Represents the totally awesome/cheerleader roll. Hell, he's like a Kamina that swings both ways. He has always pushed me to do better and reach for the sun. No one knows bi guy's identity, he's more of a ideal and a aspect than a person, like Kamina. Only that Kamina does not swing both ways, and I totally wish that he did.

Hadassah D.G. Chayim: Generally ultra kind person who I may or may not have a crush on. Gavi represents that positive aura that everyone needs in their life. Talking to Gavi makes everyone feel a bit better or a whole lot better. She's just a extremely likable person that is like a ray of sunshine in anyone's cloudy day. She often reminds me that the journey of life isn't a race and that it's not a competition.

Zoe Kincaid: Has a mix of Kamina traits. Blunt as a brick to the face, and snarky. But she's a diehard friend who gives much needed support. She's like that sister that I wish I had but never will.

There are more, but I have to keep it short. Otherwise I'll be writing all day

Beware the spark of the sage's light, for we are gifted with nature's sight. Beware our will and mental might, for we will fight to the end for what is right

Thursday, July 14, 2011

The Advent of Powerful Emotions

Now that my life has calmed down and became peaceful, I have time to process my emotions. How I feel as a woman, the various emotions I feel from everyday life. Being on hormones will cause these emotions to flow more often and freely.

This isn't a bad thing tho. I spent my entire life holding in my emotions because they were not "acceptable". Now I can be myself. Express myself in any manner I feel I need to. This is one thing that all people need. Deep introspection and soul searching, so they can find the true self.

I have become less angry. My anger has taken a backseat to my love for people and my compassion. I love all life, even the people I cannot stomach. I love showing kindness and I love not giving in to negativity anymore

My emotional attachments have grown more powerful. There are some people I can say without a doubt, that I love. I care for them deeply and I will destroy any who hurt them. I care for them deeply and I consider them all family. Some of them I have romantic attachments to but I will not pursue it. If it happens, it will and if it doesn't then it's not meant to be. And I still love them like a family member either way.


I also want more, but not how I wanted more before. I want to explore and evolve. I want to become a child of the earth and become one with the entire earth. Learn how to love the whole world with my all. I feel for the first time in life that I am capable of loving the world and helping people without fail


Above all, all these emotions are positive and wholesome.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Indigo Sage: The Closet Is Death

The Indigo Sage: The Closet Is Death: "My life was full of hesitation, ever since that fateful revelation. My existence was rife with misery and sorrow, the truth of my sexuality ..."

The Advent of Excellence: Freedom of Solitude

The Advent of Excellence: Freedom of Solitude: "A short while ago, I was morbidly afraid of being alone. In constant fear of being assaulted or robbed, scared of being alone. But since I..."

Freedom of Solitude

A short while ago, I was morbidly afraid of being alone. In constant fear of being assaulted or robbed, scared of being alone. But since I've been living in Baltimore, I have had a spark of freedom of solitude in my soul. I walk in the hoods and the ghettos with my head held high and not a worry in the world, because I am confident in my abilities and my capacity to survive.

People are puzzled at how easily I head out on my own and walk through a terrible neighborhood while holding hands and making out with a guy, they admire it and admit that they underestimate me. The truth is that I have been underestimating myself. I am much more capable than I have myself credit for.

I now know that I do not need people as badly as I once thought.  I am not as weak as I once believed. In fact, I am much stronger than the people I previously thought superior to myself. I can survive anything and I can do anything I put my mind to. 

This freedom is refreshing indeed