I used to be very jealous of the people who recieved help from friends, family and other allies while I faced the darkness alone as a child. Even as a adult, I burned with jealousy and disdain of media darlings because this victim who everyone loved and wanted to rescue, while I was a ghost to everyone. But now I look at it in a different way.
I am not and will never be lovable. I will not ever have a legion of friends or people fighting each other to rescue me. I can only depend on myself in the end. The simple fact that I am still alive is testament to my ability to fight for myself. I need to fight alone because that is how it's meant to be. The darlings who won people over to help them need that help. They are not powerful enough to stand against the storm alone and they are no lesser because of that
People are different. I'm writing about my experiences in life and how I got to this in life to serve as a warning and a lesson of what happens if parents and teachers ignore the cries of their children for help. I will also write about the gradual damage to my life and mind caused by the abuses I experienced and how that damage affects my life to this day.
I sincerely hope that my writings help someone. The Ghost and The Darkness will truly be a Advent of Excellence.
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